The End of the Chemo

Hopefully, my last chemo session two weeks ago (more on that later). The last few were all pretty bad...it was really starting to catch up and take its toll on my body. I had been getting really anxious about the last few so the doctor proscribed me xanax to take before the treatment, but just the anticipation of getting sick was really overwhelming and I had to go throw up in the bathroom about half way through. Its pretty crazy that I still managed to have that much anxiety despite the three xanies I took that morning....

I am really amazed at the reaction my body has to the doctor's office now. The way it smells turns my stomach. I was watching a movie the other day where one character is in the hospital with an IV, and just seeing the logo on the bag made me nauseous. I've become the exact opposite of Pavlov's dog; instead of salivating I barf.

Some friends from college came in town last week, and what I thought was going to be a dinner out with them and my parents was actually a huge surprise party thrown by my friends in celebration of my last treatment. I was completely surprised. There were probably 20 or so people there...we had a private room and everything. My littlest sister even came home a day early from college to attend, I felt really lucky and loved to have such great friends and family.

I am still a bit in the dark as to what the rest of my treatment will entail, but he rest of this week is full of more scans and tests and doctor's appointments and I should be more informed by Friday. Hopefully everything goes well and I have responded enough to the chemo so that the radiation can begin soon. It would be a major drag if the tests aren't positive and I have to go back on the red devil....that would really suck.

I cannot describe how great I have been feeling this week knowing that I didn't have to go get another treatment. As of right now I am 16 days out, so this is probably the best/most energy I've felt since my birthday in November. I even went swimming again for the first time in six months. I was really slow. Contemplating entering some open water races over the summer so I have an excuse to really get back in the pool.